Fights I likes!!

Fought with KD yesterday, appaled by his apathy to the way things are and how he thinks they'll never change. Shouted at himm, abused him, tried to use reason, logic and witticism ( if there was any left by that time).
Walked off in a huff , from an argument where he just wouldnt listen. And a minute later, was smiling to myself, alone.

I guess he's the only one with whom I can fight like this, and say " No hard feelings!!" and really mean it. :)

Msged him about an hour later. " people like me will make people like you believe".

He replied."Wouldnt have provoked you if i doubted that....".

:)

The Battle of Me's

I sometimes wonder about this lump in my throat .. the one that comes up for apparantly no obvious reason... when I eat alu gobi, when i see mum on skype , when i stand in a really quite gurdwara, when i meet an old friend from the time when i was carefree , when i finish a trek and stand on top of the peak, when i see an ocean , see an abandoned animal and walk away from it, when i look into the mirror and see my eyes. I guess its abt the options at every step in life and how i did not have the courage to take the right ones. How now i have conditioned myself to be grown up- a fake laugh around new people to make them comfortable and silence around ppl who are known and familiar . Just someone who is shut mouth in the face fo conflict.Probably scared. Probably too grown up.

I dont want that lump.But its obvious who'll win.