I sometimes wonder about this lump in my throat .. the one that comes up for apparantly no obvious reason... when I eat alu gobi, when i see mum on skype , when i stand in a really quite gurdwara, when i meet an old friend from the time when i was carefree , when i finish a trek and stand on top of the peak, when i see an ocean , see an abandoned animal and walk away from it, when i look into the mirror and see my eyes. I guess its abt the options at every step in life and how i did not have the courage to take the right ones. How now i have conditioned myself to be grown up- a fake laugh around new people to make them comfortable and silence around ppl who are known and familiar . Just someone who is shut mouth in the face fo conflict.Probably scared. Probably too grown up.
I dont want that lump.But its obvious who'll win.
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